Currently Listening The Milk-Eyed Mender By Joanna Newsom see related

im pretty sure that i think xanga blows and i may not continue to use it.

this may be goodbye.

Currently Listening Amelie: Original Soundtrack Recording By Yann Tiersen see related

so i have been thinking lately....

i dont want to be an adult...at all.  i have a year left before i am done with school and become a real member of society.  that sucks...

sometimes i forget that i am already 22 years old...which i know isnt terribly old, but seems ancient to me!  i cant even look back and see a transition from childhood into adulthood...yikes! 

i guess i am just a kid at heart.  just last night i got in trouble for jumping on the couch haha...i guess it had just been too long since i played american gladiators...it just seemed necessary at the time....oh well...  i guess even though the advantages of being a kid at heart are great, you have to deal with the disadvantages too, like getting sent to bed early haha.  oh well, it was fun while it lasted. 

and this whole responsibility thing....i have not gotten that figured out yet...i am not retarted or anything...i just cant seem to get myself MOTIVATED and ORGANIZED...and its only getting worse!!!! ugh...and although my procrastination and utter disregard for deadlines does create a thrill of excitement that nothing else can...it does get old after a while....sometimes i just want to pull all of my hair out!

anywho...i have a million things to do...which of course i am going to put off until late tonight....so i am going to go and not do those things...

thats all.

Currently Listening The Fantasticks (Original 1960 Off-Off Broadway Cast) By Harvey Schmidt, Tom Jones, Jerry Orbach see related

Ok, so i am sure no one reads this anymore due to my lack of posting EVER.  its been over a month..so i would like to say sorry to my HUGE fan base out there.

so lets recap the last month of my life.....

um...NOTHING....

my birthday was yesterday...but i did not recieve any birthday cards.....

sort of reminiscent to last year when everyones campus mailboxes were BULGING with christmas cards and i did not recieve ANY. 

so if you mofos dont send me a christmas card this year i will freak.

on the bright side...oh wait there is no bright side.

THIS SEMESTER SUCKS. AND I CANT WAIT FOR IT TO BE OVER!

why the heck do i want to be an F-ing teacher.  so i am at practicum today and i had to play checkers with this one kid who appears to be a nice kid....your average 3rd grader.  well, he starts telling me how HIS class plays checkers...and i was disagreeing and then some other kid was like..yeah our teachers taught us a different way...so i LEARNED this DIFFERENT way...but it kept on getting more complicated...and i eventually LOST....  so i am finally leaving the school and i was walking down the hall and that class was having a bathroom break and the kid pointed at me and laughed and said....HAHA, I MADE UP ALL THOSE RULES AND YOU LOST HAHA, AND I AM GOING TO DO IT AGAIN!!!.  i got him in trouble for talking in the hall. little rat bastard.

.......i had to turn in my student teaching application and i requested ELEMENTARY music...WHY.....i want to kill myself and there is nothing i can do about it now...

here is a picture of one of the 2nd grade kids in my practicum....

notice the poofy red hair cut into a wonderfully stylish mullet... and who could forget the 3 earings.... one day this kid told me about a 'possum that he killed.  i said....."oh"

thats enough for today.